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Jasyn.com Reaches 150! And a Year in Review!

Monday, December 21st, 2009

Welcome, Welcome and Welcome again to a very special entry from Jasyn.com! This Entry is dedicated to YOU the very special readers that have been keeping up with everything that has been going on for the past 5 years 4 months and 5 days since my very first entry oh so long ago! Today we have reached a Milestone of 150 Entries and if it were not for my readers I’d never would never have reached this many entries!!! So this goes out to you, my readers! Thank you!!!!

I can’t believe that I’ve been able to keep Jasyn.com going for so long… When I started this site back in 2003, honestly I thought it was going to just be a fun thing that I’d eventually lose interest in… However, after getting emails and seeing the stats and having people actually tell me that they enjoy my site, I’ve kept it going and going and now I don’t believe that I’ll ever stop… Well least not unless I have anything to say about it :) So many things have been entered into here to tell about the story of my week to week life, and I’ve left everything on the table for everyone in the world to read just a little bit about a man just living a life worth living! Some people find my life to be comical, while others feel that my life could be described as tragic, and some find inspiration through my words to live their lives and find joy and happiness within themselves and the people around them… And that’s what makes Jasyn.com so special I believe, is that even though I tell the story of my life, everyone can take a story from here and learn from my triumphs and mistakes, and even learn to support someone that you might not have met face to fact, but still support that person because they are human and we all need a little support from time to time!!!

Over the years I’ve been able to see many great things, and reported them here on Jasyn.com… From going to watch the Indianapolis 500 from only 4 rows away from Pit Row, to watching a Cardinals game in the Lower Bowl; Going to see the Grand Canyon in the snow, and having a blast with the guys in the family in Vegas… but also many things have happened that also continue to leave me grounded and realizing that with life comes peaks and valleys… With the Lies of Malibu and Leigha, to the death of my beautiful son Andrew who I constantly think about… which leads me to my next point, and I can prove this to be true, that in you can gain everything just as easily as have everything taken away in the same moment in time… So my advise to anyone who is reading this: Enjoy the tiny pleasures and joys in life while you have them here in this moment…

This year has now coming into it’s final 2 weeks and with Christmas coming up this week, and New Years Day is just around the corner; Traditionally I Do my annual ‘Year in Review’… 2009 hasn’t been the greatest year, but then again a lot has been accomplished and many battles have been fought and won for myself this year… But starting this year, as I do every year, I have my birthday in Mid January… and I was able to have my birthday wish come true!!! To see my Cardinals go all the way to the Super Bowl… an Amazing run that saw them go all the way to the last possession and playing a truly awe-inspiring game… though they lost, it still validated everything that I knew to be true with my Cardinals and that they did have it in them to play on the worlds greatest stage!

A couple weeks later, I saw myself with my father, brother and cousin in Las Vegas for my first true Vegas experience… Leaving my girlfriend [at the time] behind to go gamble, see a comedy show, and see the sites of Las Vegas with my own eyes was a truly memorable and something I will never forget :) Not too long after being home, driving along in Mesa My truck was slammed from behind by two vehicles… The truck was repairable but I had sustained back injuries that might be with me the rest of my life… I did go to treatment, and I do feel a lot better by now, but sometimes my back does get exhausted much easier and I’ve noticed that I do get pains more easily than I’m used to… But after 7 months of waiting it out, I was able to reach an agreement with the insurance company to settle out of court with my medical bills paid and some money for myself… hopefully soon in the new year I’ll be able to get myself a nice new vehicle! But only time will tell with that!

Well in May, after my fathers and brothers birthday, I had to get back into the dating game… After what Blair had done, I had to kick her to the curb to allow for a more loyal and committed person to enter my life… however the dating scene was bare at best… Date after useless date I went on in 2009 to no avail… If there was anything that I could say about 2009 is that all I kept finding was Flakes, Selfishness, Conceded, and just women who didn’t know what the hell they wanted and were only succeeding in wasting time… Blair turned out to be a flop, but at least she wanted something… I had gone on so many first dates from OkCupid and many other free sites, but then a friend of mine forced me into signing up on Match.com… I reluctantly agreed to join… and for the most part, during my 3 month membership, it was the same ol’ story… Getting first dates but never getting a call back; or starting to date someone who tells you exactly what you want to hear, only to have them break up with you for the most half-assed excuse ever; and others who are willing to text you 100x a day but can’t muster to schedule a 30 minute meal with you to meet up… well it’s funny how things work out… After almost giving up hope and packing it in, I meet the best one of them all in Susan… Who every day seems more and more like the one I’ve been waiting for… So many people have told me that I’ve had too high of standards and I’m being too picky with who I wanted to be with, but Susan validates everything that I had hoped to find in a woman and exceeds all my expectations… She’s in Michigan right now after dropping her off at the airport on Friday… But she’ll be back after the new year so that we can continue what we started :) [do I hear wedding bells in my future? I think so]…

Phew…. I’m not even done yet and my fingers are getting a bit tired ;) But let’s carry on…

This year also helped me deal with a lot pent up issues that I still had over my son Andrew… With his untimely ending shortly after his birth, I still had blamed myself for the only decision that I had to make as his father… So just before fathers day, I wrote my son a letter and honestly felt much better for it… the only unfortunate part is that the letter made so many people cry after reading it that I had to quickly put it in my archives, but it did serve it’s purpose in letting my son know that no matter what, I still love him!

This year I also got a new roommate… My cousin moved in with me in August because he needed a new place to stay for the time being… it’s been nice to have a roommate, but I do miss living on my own… I mean I can’t walk around naked anymore LOL… (<.<)... (>.>)… (^.^)…. NO I didn’t just say that… but it’s kinda nice to have someone here other than just living on my own, and he helps out a bit with rent and cleaning sometimes… He’s here sometimes but also still stays the night with his girlfriend Margie from time to time… but when he’s here we still have good times :) and if it weren’t for him, I’d never be able to do the haunted house that we built this year, and even hooked me up with cable in my room :D … so Thank’s Erik for all your help with the apartment this year!

And now we return back to where it all started… the end of the 2009 year… just like any year, I’ve had my up’s and downs… keeping in mind that this hasn’t been like most years with something that severe looming in the shadows… even the Era of JASON was pretty mild and met my beautiful girlfriend towards the end of it… But again it’s going to be out with the old and in with the new… I’m looking forward to 2010 more so than in years past… with a bright future ahead and looking forward to starting to get everything in order once again… Now I want to make my predictions in 2010…

I predict that I’ll be back up in North Phoenix by mid 2010, that the Cardinals will fall one game short of the Super Bowl [I hope I'm wrong there], that I’ll be driving a new vehicle by the end of 2010, and that I will have quit smoking before New Years 2011… OIY that’s a tall order… I hope you want fries with that!!! But Everyone have a Merry Xmas! a Happy Hanukkah! a Happy Kwanzaa! and a Great and Safe New Year and I’ll See you all in 2010!!!

[Let the new Decade begin, Jasyn.com Style!!!]

Did I really find her?

Wednesday, November 18th, 2009

Hello everyone, and welcome to Jasyn.com… Sorry about the slight delay in this weeks entry, but hey it’s all worth it!

Well what a week or so I had!!! But as usual, lets start at the beginning and work our way forward… So starting off with last weeks entry and what was suppose to be my 4 day work week… Well… let’s say that an impromptu sick days ended up extending it to a 2 day work week… So… I had Tuesday and Wednesday off last week… Then worked Thursday and Friday then had Saturday thru Tuesday off… :) Yeah I’m a slacker, but you would have done it too if you could! So the past week and a half has been quite relaxing…

Here’s the part you wanted to read! Last Tuesday I started Emailing and Texting a girl from Match.com… Her name is Susan and right off the bat we seemed to really click… Mind you this was only texting at the time… But after everything working out, we decided to meet up on Wednesday for lunch and a movie… The date went very very well… It was very refreshing to have a date go that well, in fact after the movie we went to Deer Valley park and just walked and talked for another 2 hours… Everything just fit into place and it was just amazing…

Thursday I finally went back to work, had a decent day… Same with Friday… However with another 4 day weekend coming up, I wanted to PARTY!!!! So Erik and I made plans to go up to Hurricane Bay… Katie also joined in on the fun and we all had a great time… There was plenty of drinking and karaoke involved, Erik of course sang his ‘War Pigs’ and Katie did ‘Hit me Baby’… I did ‘Won’t back down’ :) … Well Susan joined on the fun after she got out of school, which was about 1030, and we hung out til just after midnight… Everyone wanted to go… Well I ended up leaving with Susan and crashed at her place that night… Can’t even begin to describe how awesome it was to have someone in my arms and not having to go anywhere… If I died right there, I would have died in bliss…

Saturday I had to leave early… and being I didn’t have a car because Erik drove to hurricane bay… I had hitched a ride from Susan’s roommate, which was extremely nice of her… But I started laundry and wanted to get that out of the way just so I had a free weekend… But I ended up passing out and falling asleep for a few hours… But pretty much Saturday I was just kicking back and relaxing! Not bad for starting my 4 day weekend…. Sunday I got up and got ready to meet up with Susan again at her place… So I got dressed, picked up a movie from the store and we watched the Cardinals game together and then the movie… Too bad though that the night even had to end, but c’est la vie…

Monday was just hectic for a so-called day off… there were tons of errands to run… First I met up with my mom for lunch in Phoenix, then I drove to my Lawyers to finally get my settlement check from the accident in April… NO I’M NOT BUYING DRINKS!!!! After that I had to run to US Airways center to pick up Suns tickets… I invited Susan to join me on December 5th to a Suns game against the Kings… Then I headed home to clean up a bit and do the Dishes… also I did some shopping later in the evening… Late that night, I had to run up to Game Stop to pick up my Backordered game… okay I didn’t have to go at Midnight, but I’ve been anticipating this game for a long time and wanted to start getting in some time in before my short vacation ended… I backordered Assassins Creed 2, which is for PS3…. But that pretty much sums up my Tuesday… 7 hrs of non-stop gameplay… oooo and I made stew for dinner, and I didn’t FUBAR it :)

LOL I know I kinda rushed that last part there… but given the circumstances I figured that this entry has run long enough… so just to wrap up really quick… New Girl [She's amazing!], Relaxing days off, and also very busy ones… just another week in the life of Jasyn.com ;)

[ Maybe I really did find the one! ]

Post Halloween Spectacular!

Monday, November 2nd, 2009

Good morning friends, and welcome to Jasyn.com… the ultimate location for all your Jasyn.com needs!!!

Well Halloween has come and past, and now it’s time to clean up the mess!!! Aww… this is like my Christmas and taking down my haunted house is like taking down a Christmas tree :( … Sigh… well at least this year my neighbor Josh and I generated a lot of buzz around the complex with our haunted houses to where we did get quite a few trick or treaters this year… Next year might be even better, but that all depends on if I’m doing it here or doing it in a new house, who knows what the future holds…

This year, as usual, I made my own costume from pieces of other costumes or Halloween stores from around the city and made myself into a executioner… The costume turned out great, the only problem was the little skulls I glued on my belt kept coming off and that kept tickin me off!!! However, by the end of the night, I was too exhausted to care… Saturday took almost 4 hours to setup our haunted house with the tarp and all the electrical equipment we used… Plus we ran our of tarp and had to go back to Home Depot to get more along with some extension cords… The final turnout was amazing and I honestly felt like Santa at Christmas, only scarier!!! I was so happy that My parents, brother, and Monte showed up to enjoy the haunted house as well… I even got to scare my father really good [he never saw me coming, which was kinda the point] ;) LOL But it was all in good fun! Pics are posted now and are ready for your viewing pleasure… just don’t enjoy them too much 0_o….

Sunday I woke up and helped my friend Katie move into her new apartment, which is actually about a mile and a half from my apartment now :) so she’s much closer so we might get to hang out more than we do… But she didn’t have much to move, just a couch, bed, computer, and a chair really… Also I helped her go to Walmart [GAG!] to buy some fans too… Good times… I was going to watch the Cardinals game, but seeing how they didn’t show up to play [Metaphorically] it wasn’t too much of a loss… but last night I just kicked back the rest of the night and just chilled!

Well today being the last day of my weekend, I’ve got laundry, some cleaning up still, and I have to head to my lawyers to sign some papers to make everything final with my case and then I am going to finally get my check from the accident… not like i’m doing anything with it at this moment, but I’m hoping for that to grow over the next few months to where I can get a house… who knows… But that’s all boils and ghouls for this years Halloween Spectacular!!! Next up the holiday season!!!

[ Scare ya all Next year ;) ]

Blind Dating and a Promtion!

Tuesday, August 18th, 2009

Welcome to the weekly wrap with me, Jasyn Dot Com!

Well as usual I’ve kept busy over the last week and you’re about to hear all about it, which is why you decided to come to my site… ISN’T IT!!! :) Well We’ll start off last Thursday… Which I have to admit was a very very good day! It started off with going to work that morning, started off great with some nice early sales… Also that afternoon I found out Was promoted to the new Pilot Hosting team… However two things about this, first that it’s in a new location… Second is that my shift completely changes from a nice Monday thru Friday day job, but now I work Tuesday through Saturday 6:30AM-3pm… It’s nice to get off early, but I wake up now before the sun does…. NOT COOL! LOL but the job is fun and I’m doing more technical work…

But Even after that great news the day got better… My mom set me up on a ‘blind date’…. I know… a blind date in this day an age huh? lol… well the date was for that night at ‘Margarita Rocks’ in Tempe… I have to admit, the scene was a bit out of my element and not my style… The date could have gone better, but it didn’t end horribly… I only got Turned away at the door because I was wearing my Cards Jersey, kept getting interrupted by drunks, and got beer split over me… so not a total disaster :D Well we decided to call it a mulligan and we’re going to meet up on Wednesday is all goes well…

Friday night my friend Laurie came by and we were hanging for a while, but then we decided to go to zia and pick up some movies and such and had a geeked out movie night! That was fun… but also after the movie, I helped her by taking some pictures for her dating profile! I’m such a good friend :) many of them really turned out nice! Saturday My parents invited me to a graduation for one of my fathers co-workers wife… yeah I’m not going into too much detail, but hey free food… I also hung out with Jenn again this weekend which was nice, we’re becoming more friends but I’m starting to think that’s where we’re going to stay, unfortunately I do not see us any more than that at this time… Sunday and Monday were kick back days pretty much, but I got up early on those days to help adjust my schedule for my new shift! Also Erik started bringing over some items and started his moving in process… I’m pretty excited about that as well!

Overall I keep myself busy busy busy… and it’s only getting busier… With Erik out of town, he’s not doing much this week to move in, but also I have a lot going on with meeting up with friends and going on dates… let’s just hope things work out in the long run! LOL… But that’s all for this entry, sorry the ending was kinda rushed but still being just a busy guy :D

[ NO MORE PARTY FOULS! ]

A Letter to My Son

Monday, June 15th, 2009

Well I hope everyone is having a good June and hope that everything is on the up and up! I’m going to do things a little differently this entry. Fathers day is coming up and I’ve been rather down lately, however I came up with an idea to write a letter to my son in hopes to finally move on and get my life back on track once again. I hope you all understand… Thanks for continuing to read :)

To My Dearest Son Andrew,

I first want to say that you are a blessing to me, that you are my son and will always be such now and forever, however my dearest Andrew, I have mourned your passing for the past 2 years now. I wanted to so badly have you in my arms and embrace you as a father should always be able to embrace his own flesh and blood, and for someone who has only in my life for only a day, your memory and my love for you will always remain til the day I also pass from this life as well.

My son, I feel for these past two years like as if your death was somehow my responsibility. That your death as a direct result of somehow my sins that have come to hurt the ones I love. I bore your death like a cross that I had to bare with me every day. I look back and realize now that I made the decicions that I did was to ultimately protect you from a brutal and harsh life that would only result in more pain and suffering that you would have experienced. Andrew, I was presented with a decision that is almost impossible decision that no father should ever be presented with, a decision with no real right answer. To either kill their son to prevent them more pain, or to let them live and chance their suffering for the remaining moments of life. I had to make a decision on the spot Andrew, I had no chance to think, I know in my head I made the right decision, but in my heart I feel as if I never gave you the chance to live. What has plagued my mind the last two years is that the one decision I had to make as a father, was to end the life of my son.

Andrew, I am telling you all this because after 2 years of tears and the oceans it has created in my heart, I’m ready to finally move forward. I can never replace you, and you will always have a place in my heart, but Andrew, I need to stop crying for you now. My son, for someone who has only been in my life for one day, you will leave an impact that will last my lifetime. Andrew, I have my future ahead of me. So again a father must make an impossible choice, Andrew I must stop crying for you and mourning your death. I’m sorry. If you were alive today, I’d do anything for you and help you develop into the man I know you could be, but as painful as it is that will never happen now. So please forgive me so that I can pass that experience to your brothers or sisters.

Andrew, your memory will always live on within myself and your mother, I love you so much that my words will never express. This is something I need to do for me to move on my son. I’m telling you all this in hopes that you will understand that I’m ready. I’m ready to keep you in my past instead of hoping for a future with you, I’m ready to start thinking of trying to start a familiy again; and in order for me to give my love and devotion to them I need to save my tears from you. I do not know if you will understand this, if you will forgive me, or if you’ll even see this; but please understand this decision is to help your father start a new life. Andrew, my heart has been broken but now it is time for me to pick up the pieces. Thank you Andrew, you have given me the greatest gift a son can give to his father, and that was showing me what kind man that I have become! For that I’m eternally grateful.

With all My Love,

Your Father
Jasyn