Jasyn's Weekly Entries

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Happy halloween everyone! This is my most favorite time of the year.. yes even more than Christmas! Infact you can pratically call Halloween my Christmas! Although This year I’m not really doing much for Halloween… We’ve had such a rough year that I’m just not going to push my luck by buying costumes and decorations, besides last year I hardly had any trick or treaters…. I can’t wait till I am able to move into a house so I can build my own haunted house which would be sweet!!! I know I’m just a huge kid at heart

Well my emotions lately have been on a roller coaster ride… I almost feel like I’m on my perverbial period… One day I’m finally relieved and feel I have a grasp on things and hoping that things are finally rolling my way, then the next day something happens to make me feel that I’m never going to get out of this hole I’m in… This is how my emotions have been for months now [and you wonder why I'm using professional help]…I have another appointment this week, and they have been spaced out to where I’m only going about twice a month… Sessions are going very well but I still feel overwhelmed over everything I need to do to lead a healthy independant life!

And Finally only 30 more days til the Era of JASON is complete for 2007 and only 7 more months til the next time around but next year I will be more prepared than this year to deal with what the Era of JASON has to offer!!! Well everyone, I’m going to get out of here… Got customers to help and websites to save!

[ BOO! Scare'd you! ]

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Okay Finally a FRIDAY after this gurelling week… and things keep piling up on my plate, but with help I am also sorting my life slowly but effectively… I’ll tell you something about this social worker I’m seeing, he’s been a tremendous help to geting my life on the right track… I have been seeing my doctor for just over a month now and I have made leaps and bounds in progress to find out what seem to be my problem of why I am the way I am… Maybe one day I’ll even explain it to my faithful and loyal readers

Also if you have taken the liberty to notice I have also taken Andrew’s picture down… I think it is about time as well only because I do need to progress forward in my life… Andrew I do love you and I could never possibly forget you but you know daddy needs to help mommy now so we can prepair for our futures… You will never be forgotten and you will always have a place in our hearts…

Also I’m playing poker again, maybe not as well as I had hope to, but at least I’m getting some table action and winnning some tourneys, also Jenn has joined up as well and has made a final table herself…. Well this is pretty much all that I have to write about this time around… keep an eye out for new games on the horizon… take care everyone!!!

[ Crazy like a FOX! ]

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Okay everyone, I know I’ve probally worried the lot of you with stories of how shitty life has been over the last few months and that the ERA of JASON is a big sacary monster that looms over my every step for 5 months straight. Look everyone, I appreciate the votes of confidence and the support that everyone is trying to help me through this difficult time, but quite honestly at this point in time I just don’t need it anymore…

Every day now for a while I have at least one person come up to me and say how badly they want to help but they’re powerless to do so or they dont know where to start or they are unable to do something, blah blah blah… but to be quite honest [and please don't take this the wrong way] but STOP!!! I know you’re sorry things had to happen to me, I know you’re sorry that you wish you could help, but I am taking all the steps in the world to get myself back in order… I really am!

I didn’t want to have a weekly entry like this… and I’m not trying to vent or to spred negativity, just that I need to clear the air and to let eveyone know that I am able to fix myself… Just I need the time to do it at my own pace… Everyone I dont want to come off as a jerk or as someone who is unappreciative of friends and family, but sometimes a person needs to heal on their own…

On a more positive note, Jennifer and I have decided to take a vacation up north during Janurary to go see the sights of Arizona… It will be a blast… We plan on driving up and going to the Grand Canyon and also Monument Valley, but this will be a while away… I think this will be a good thing for us!

Alright everyone, I got to jet on out of here!! Thanks for understanding! One last note, GO DBACKS, down the ROX!

[ GOOOOO DBAX! ]

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WILL THIS ERA OF JASON EVER END!!! It seems the deeper I get into these months the worse things get… And now it’s like a plague, infecting everyone around me and spreading like a wildfire between friends and family… In the past week alone, I have had some difficulties with work and some of the beauocracy of how they are handling my anual review and my increased salary… I might not see a dime from that back-pay til December…

Then to add insult to injury, our second car broke down… the powersteering belt snapped and apparently caused enough damange to where I could not drive it this past week… So I ended up forkin out $700 just to get it in working condition… Like I said, if it’s not one thing it’s another….

Also my girlfriend lost another family member this week to an unforseeable event that has ultimatly devistated the core of her family… Her Mother, brother and sister are all crushed by this event and all I am able to do is offer my condolances like they did for me and Jenn when we lost Andrew…

Well hopefully with only 7 more weeks remaining with the era of JASON, my luck will improve… alot of bad luck has already came across my path over the past 14 weeks, and I’m not looking forward to next years era of JASON… Well until next time my fellow Jason-k-teers!

[ If I didn't have bad luck, I wouldn't have any luck at all! ]

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Well I finally am starting to get my life back in order and in the right direction for a change… Yesterday I had my appointment for the social worker, and I did actually go to this appointment… And to be honest I’m really glad I did… I was talking to him about what had happened to me in the last few years, explained every emotion I could muster, as well as be as honest as I can possibly be… I knew I needed help but now I know why… Everything in my life is stacked up against me, it’s like I put the worst odds against myself, stack the deck, then expect myself to breakthrough without hesitation… The game plan is for me to work on me first, I need to get myself situated then I will be able to help others and begin to move on with life, because right now I’m stuck where I am… I have no where to go nothing to do, I’m just stuck… And I honestly believe I have hope for the future that things will be alright…

Hopefully I’ll come out a brand new Jasyn out of this… someone who is ready to take on day to day challanges, and maybe be a more healthier Jasyn, both physically and Mentally… Although this week I have stayed away from fast food and soda’s, well if I have had a Soda it’s been diet… I Drink either tea or water at home… so maybe this is a good start to a new me… Sometimes people just need a second chance…

Now once again this year I commishined a new Fantasy Football league… 8 Teams, 14 Season games, 2 playoff games, 1 winner! Last year I took this league to the house, however this year C-site has returned to try and take this season from me, so far I have started 0-1-1 to begin the season, but I will be back to rare form soon enough… Well I’m goin to take off now… just wanted to let you all know I’m still alive…

[ Number 5 ALIVE!! ]