Jasyn's Weekly Entries

Sorry for the delay guys!

Well I’ve done a lot of thinking lately and figured that I need to get things back on track… I’m behind on my finances, my health, and just about everything else ranging from my Truck to my apartment… Oiy I don’t know why things pile up on me like this all the time, [Okay maybe I do know why, but doesn't mean I like it!]

So I’m compiling a list of things that need to be done and going to finally get off my lazy arse and get to it for a change… But with certain things I need the help and support of my friends and family… Maybe this will also inspire someone who is struggling with handling things to get on the right track! I can only hope to set a good example for others to follow… I don’t know why I feel the need to do these things, it’s not like I really need anyone’s approval, however I just have the need to better myself in order to achieve better things in life.

I guess this all stems from my depression as of late though… I’m just still hurt by the fact that this could have been my sons first Christmas, the first year where I was suppose to spoil him… Get him a little Tigers or Diamondbacks jersey for him… take the day off to be with my kid… I kinda lost a sence of determination when I found out he was a lie… hence why I guess I just let things just lapse and not cared anymore… Although I tried to keep a tough front, I felt like dying everyday… This holiday season really took the wind out of my sails, but like always I seem to bounce back even stronger than ever… And I feel like I will bounce back when I get my life back to manageable again! I can only hope… Well my next update will probably be on or around Christmas, I need a little Hiatus from this site building stuff for a little bit, but I will be back with new pictures and stories I’m sure

[Deck some halls!]

Hello again my friends!

Well while thinking of what I’d write in this entry I figured I’d go a different route this time in order to kinda vent a little bit as well… [I seem to do that a lot] But I look back at all the entries I put in the past and look even further than that in order to gain a little perspective on my life and try and see if this is truly the way that a person should live… I know, I know this is already getting kinda deep, but I kinda like to do some inner soul searching every now and again… I’ve always tried to do the right thing in life, you know try to make the best choices in order not only to help myself, but mainly to help others… But life really get’s complicated… No matter how much of a good person you really want to be there will always be someone whom will be crushed as a result… However, as always seems to be the case, this world is not ready for good people to do the right things… For every kind hearted person there is someone out there that will take advantage and exploit that fact in order to get what they want… You really have two choices ln life anymore, be kind hearted and try and do some good for others no matter how difficult and sometimes unrewarding the task is or become the jerk of the world and take advantage of the good people in order to make it somewhat easier on your life but make it more difficult on others… This is how I have come to view society… Sometimes I feel like I am the only one really trying everyday to try and just do ONE GOOD THING for at least someone today, tomorrow, the day after that, etc… But somewhere, somehow I always seem to have to be the asshole… [Okay the cat's out of the bag]…

I guess while being a nice guy (or so I like to believe I am) I am faced with difficult choices that really end up hurting someone at any given time; like a test that has no correct answers, just answers that are wrong no matter what you say…

And this brings me to the update part of my little entry today…. Well back on Friday I was sitting at home with Stephanie, when of all people to show up Amber comes knocking at the door… She came with a proposal in mind, be with me and she’ll divorce her husband whose in jail… Amber’s ulterior motives are still a little unclear, however after 8 years of history with someone doesn’t help anything… For those of you who don’t know about my past, Amber was my very first girlfriend and also my first Fiancee whom I asked to marry me while I was still in High School… Things between us were always complicated… Sorry got off track there… Well she knocked on my door and said she would be mine again, but with Stephanie looking on like a spectator to a horrific accident… Amber tried her best to get me to be hers once again, but I had to crush her heart in order to preserve what me and Stephanie have developed in such a short time… Again decisions that nice guys are handed every day… A decision with no RIGHT answer, because someone always loses… Although I, according to everyone I confided this story to says I made the correct decision, I still had to crush someone in the process… Hence why this entry has kind of a somber tone to it… I feel bad because I had to be the asshole, I had to hurt SOMEONE with either choice I made… Many in this scenario wouldn’t give it a second thought, but it’s decisions like this that haunt me day in and day out… Decisions that really crush and hurt people… It wasn’t like I asked for this choice to find me, however things like this always seem to plague me… Sometimes I feel in debt because of decisions like these, because I feel I’ve done wrong… Is it really wrong to feel like this, even if I didn’t make the gun I still pulled the trigger…

I guess the point of this entry is mainly to vent more than anything, as I’m sure we all want to vent every now and again… Just life gets very complicated when you get older, as I’m sure it gets even more complicated when you’re in your 40′s, 50′s, 80′s, ect… There is no real break, all I can hope for is that I can make the best decision I can possibly make… I like to quote Nickolas D. Wolfwood, as I usually like to: We are nothing god. Not only do we have limited powers, but sometimes were even driven to become the devil him self… I just hope when I pass from this Earth, that I will be looked on as someone who led a good life and did good things…

And here’s to Stephanie, whose steadily showing me that good things do get a reward and that it is okay to love and trust again! I love you sweetie and hope you know that!!!

Well I am going to close this entry… Sorry for getting a little heavy there… sometimes the holiday season does this to me… I promise the next one will be more cheerier.. wait… THERE A SMILEY!!!! HA! LOL… Okay everyone, Catch you guys later!!!

[STOP, SHOP, And ROLL!]

Finally!!! November 30th… the last day for the era of JASON for 2006!!!! I’m free for another 7 months as of tomorrow!!! YES!!!!

Well in case some of you don’t know… I have a real history for having bad luck in the months from July thru November! Hence why it’s the Era of Jason! July-August-September-October-November (J-A-S-O-N)… Yeah… I know, I’m superstitious…. but I wouldn’t say it if it were not true!! I have had some awful things happen to me in the past during these months that really make me think that something is going on!… My mother says that it’s because I changed my name to have a “Y” in it instead of the traditional JASON… but personally there are just too many damn Jason’s in the world, and I just want to be a little unique… *sighs*

So… this update will just reflect on the last 5 months of luck that really wasn’t all that bad compared to the other years in the past… This year starting in July, I was under the impression that Malibu, my ex-fiancee, was pregnant with my son. Then late in the month my family and I discovered that she was a compulsive liar and completely fabricated the whole thing… This utterly destroyed me at the time, being that I had already prepared to have this child and got all the necessities to be able to support this kid… Well in any case, after this fiasco I was able to break away from her and be able to move on with my life once again… although this was the most troubling thing to happen to me, this also laid the way for more opportunity for my future… After a bit of time to be alone, I became a bit depressed in August and September… The apartment was empty and I was alone… I still worked the night shift so it was still hard to see friends… however I did not lose hope… I did end up going out on a couple dates, which really didn’t go very far… and things were looking gloom… I even got arrested for something really stupid but ended up getting bailed out… I was also struggling at work from all the stress so in October I finally broke away and used some of my vacation days and got my self time off… I took a camping trip and finally got out and unwound myself… this was the first paid vacation I have taken ever in my life… it was refreshing to leave the city for a bit and just relax… Well this actually helped me out in more ways than I could have imagined… as soon as I got back, I found my sweetheart Stephanie and we have been going out ever since! And now my driving record is clean and I’m a legal driver, and I’m soon moving to Day shift to be able to hold a regular job on normal hours…. Which will be a lot better for me to be able to work on my new business and be able to compete in my poker league again …

All in all, this wasn’t that bad for the ERA OF JASON!!! I lost something, but gained so much more! and I know now what to look for in someone that’s a life mate!!!! And now for the Christmas season *sighs*… I hate Christmas… everyone in a hurry to piss everyone else off… oh well… Catch you all later!!!

[YAY!]

Hello everyone! Time for another update courtesy of your friendly neighborhood Jasyn

Well for the first time, I am actually doing an update from my own place… As of last night I finally have an internet connection at my place where I can do updates to Jasyn.com and also get my online business off the ground… So let’s get this party started… First off I’m going to bitch a little bit about Qwest! [Yeah who doesn't have a bitch about them!] Well this was suppose to be on a DSL connection that I was suppose to have installed on Monday however when I scheduled the appointment last week they failed to let me know that they don’t service my apartment for Internet or cable TV! But they sure liked to take my 240$ for an old bill and just leave me hanging… how very nice of them! BAH! Oh well least that’ll finally get off my credit!! But that still doesn’t help the fact that now I’m out 240$ before Christmas! OIY! So for all you Qwest users… make sure to ask questions because they are dirty like that I found out first hand. Well In any case now I have Cox Cable internet, but my main computer is still down till I can actually buy a graphics card for it… but it’s all good

Well this weekend really went by too quickly I’d say… I was way too busy this weekend to actually rest… My final court date was on Monday for my arrest.. I finally paid the 208$ to Glendale and now I’m a free man and a legal driver And that’s just another monkey I have off my back and less to worry about now, and that’s a good thing!

And now I finally have my own business… THAT’S RIGHT YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST!!! [Well Jasyn what's your business?] I’m so Glad you asked! LOL, Well I have a 3 part business… the first 2 are done and ready for if you wish to take part… Hothead Domains is my domain selling site, here you can buy your own domain name and buy hosting or a website builder, you can even buy your very own online store and e-mail as well for your personal use or even to start your own business as well… I have very reasonable rates for .com’s and so on! The 2nd part is that you too can also start your own business with Hothead Resellers! This is where you can also become a reseller and sell your own products, set your own prices, and also build your own business from the ground up! Now mind you the 3rd part isn’t done yet, but I also have Hothead Designs which allows anyone to come to me for website designs and logo designs if you need help… then I can help my customers build a professional looking website that will look very nice and well put together! If you have more questions or would like to get your own account you can go to these sites or you can go there yourself and start one online and get your own domain!

Well Unfortunately I have to get going now. I have some more work to do before I have to go into work so I will hope to catch you all later! Thanks to all of you that continue to check in on me and keeping my hits and stats up on this site! I’m now #1 on Google now so that’s awesome!!!

Everyone be safe on Thanksgiving this year and don’t drink and drive!

[Go LIONS!]