Jasyn's Weekly Entries

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Well I finally am starting to get my life back in order and in the right direction for a change… Yesterday I had my appointment for the social worker, and I did actually go to this appointment… And to be honest I’m really glad I did… I was talking to him about what had happened to me in the last few years, explained every emotion I could muster, as well as be as honest as I can possibly be… I knew I needed help but now I know why… Everything in my life is stacked up against me, it’s like I put the worst odds against myself, stack the deck, then expect myself to breakthrough without hesitation… The game plan is for me to work on me first, I need to get myself situated then I will be able to help others and begin to move on with life, because right now I’m stuck where I am… I have no where to go nothing to do, I’m just stuck… And I honestly believe I have hope for the future that things will be alright…

Hopefully I’ll come out a brand new Jasyn out of this… someone who is ready to take on day to day challanges, and maybe be a more healthier Jasyn, both physically and Mentally… Although this week I have stayed away from fast food and soda’s, well if I have had a Soda it’s been diet… I Drink either tea or water at home… so maybe this is a good start to a new me… Sometimes people just need a second chance…

Now once again this year I commishined a new Fantasy Football league… 8 Teams, 14 Season games, 2 playoff games, 1 winner! Last year I took this league to the house, however this year C-site has returned to try and take this season from me, so far I have started 0-1-1 to begin the season, but I will be back to rare form soon enough… Well I’m goin to take off now… just wanted to let you all know I’m still alive…

[ Number 5 ALIVE!! ]

What’s up everyone, another heart-pounding entry from Jasyn.com is on the way!

Finally back to the old entries once again… I keep blowing this off only because I have been really depressed lately… After everything that has been going on, I feel too overwhelmed to take on the world anymore… The pain and heartache that has been drawn to me over the past few years has just piled up to where I can’t even handle day-to-day activities anymore… Everything has become just a distraction… Even my work has suffered a little bit (mind you I’m not putting myself in a position to lost my job or anything, just not hitting the numbers I’m used to hitting)… Also I have noticed a change in my behavior lately, I’ve been more moody and sensative but also lost my drive to do anything anymore…

In light of this I have decided to see someone and get help for a change… Which seems quite akward becuase normally I’m the one helping people and their problems, least that’s the way it has gone for most of my life… To tell you the truth it might be a little weird being the ‘one on the couch’ it will be nice to actually get all my emotions and feelings organized and back in running order… Then again I’ve always though of Jasyn.com to be a theaputic way of expressing myself, but I guess this just isn’t enough anymore… But that’s okay… Getting help is not necessarally defeat but a way to just be happier like I used to be…

Well in other news, I was finally able to take Jenn to a baseball game, apparently this was her first professional baseball game she’s ever been to… The D’backs won [but of course] 9-8, then they had an awesome fireworks display after the game, which quite honestly I was very impressed with… Also last weekend finally football season is in full swing, however my Cardinals are up to their old ways… I can still hope though but mainly I’m looking forward to October baseball!!!

Well I think that’s enough to constitue an entry for a little bit, quite honestly everyone I know I’ve been lazy on my entries, and I appologize, but I hope to begin to write more once I get myself back on the right track… Everyone send me your vote of confidence! Til the next time…

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