Well where do I begin this time? Well a lot has happened over the last few days that really will affect the rest of my whole life… Let me tell you the whole story behind what is going on.
Last New years, I met a girl offline and hit it off pretty well… however the relationship didn’t last long after all… After 10 months of not hearing anything from her, I found out just the other day I might have a son now… That’s right, I Jasyn might be a father… I’m scared out of my wits about this… I don’t know how to be a father yet… and what if I mess up, I am responsible for two lives now… not just my own… I have requested a paternity test to make sure, but that will be a couple months before I can get the money to afford it… I mean if he does turn out to be my son, I promise to take care of him and raise him as well… and for him to know that he has a father in his life… It’s just that I’ll never be with that woman again… she went mega-psycho on me in our relationship which is why I never kept in contact with her and haven’t spoken to her in 10 months, but she was also on the move all the time…
A couple notes though… the baby was born in September, and by my calculations, the baby was a month pre-mature… and another note is that she waited this long to tell me, so it also might be that she is trying to trap me… but I’m going to watch my back when she is around….
I’m scared to death, I mean one day you wake up and then you have a son… I mean what kind of news is that… how am I suppose to act… I’m scared and happy at the same time, because if it does so happen to be that I am no longer able to have kids (another story for another time), then at least I have a son now… And even if I know that I’ll never be with his mother again, I’ll still love him as my son for the rest of my life… and nothing will ever take that away from me…
Sorry for all that, but that’s about what has been going on.. I don’t start school again til January 12th (my birthday) and Christmas is only two days away… I hope you all have a very joyful and safe Christmas, and please be good to each other… life is too short to be angry…
[Happy Holidays]
… Well the Coyotes game was awesome…. the Coyotes won 2-1, and the night just went really good… However, since Wednesday I have not been able to see my girlfriend, but I do get to see her tonight…
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